.18 months & 3 months.

our boys are getting so big.. i wish this summer would SLOW DOWN.. i don't wanna miss this fun stage with either of my boys.wyatt is now 18 months old and can't begin to explain how much i LOVE this stage. (don't i always say that about every stage??) well, there are some not-so-fun things about it (tantrums) but mostly i love how expressive and sweet he is. some things we're loving about wyatt right now:

-still holding strong with his arm twirls..maybe he'll keep it up until high school :)

-talks A LOT but only pronounces a few words right.. nana (banana), mama, and dad are understandable

-mastered the fork and almost the spoon

-still takes one or two naps, depending on the day

-has all four molars coming in

-has the cutest saltwater sandal tan line

-loves his sandbox and swimming pool

-loves running thru the sprinklers

-is a mama's boy big time

-has started being pretty whiney, hence starting time-outs already

-loves ALL food, seriously can't think of what he doesn't eat

-sits up to the table in a booster, so big

-has moved to the basement, didn't phase him.. he actually sleeps better

(i have to wake him up most the time)

- loves baby crew, kisses and hugs abound in our home

- loves to yell at belle for stealing his snacks

- loves to watch mickey mouse, chuggington, and einsteins

- will sit on the couch and watch sports with cam for hours (olympics too)

- still loves balls and balloons (lalooloon)

- takes me out to the garage to the stroller when he wants to go on a walk

- hates nursery.. hates is an understatement..we're working on it

- can do all the actions to popcorn popping on the apricot tree

- loves to kick the soccer ball around and run like crazy on the grass

- gives awesome kisses and squeezies

- is good at time out, he even starts to apologize before he goes in :) nice try dude
- still a big dude.. 28 lbs

- is just awesome.

now on to crew. he is so freakin' sweet. he is a fun little baby and i can actually say i'm enjoying this time with him more than i did with wyatt. the time is going SO FAST.. not sure if that's because it's summer, or the fact that we have 2 kids, or i'm just more busy.. but it's flying. as i'm writing this crew is already almost 3 months old. it's a little sad to think i'll only get to enjoy this age with one more baby (we're thinking 3 kids is enough for us).. and that's if everything works out and we're able to have another. i actually cried the other day because i had to put crew's 0-3 month clothes away.. and if i don't have another boy, i'll never see those on my kidlets again. SAD. but i couldn't be more in love with my family.. as busy as it is. everyone told me having 2 this close would be SO HARD.. but honestly, i don't think it is. i'd do it again in a heartbeat.. and maybe even will with a third. i basically do all the same things, just x 2. naps, diapers, feeding, playing, bedtime. rinse and repeat. i love it. i feel like the 1-2 kid transistion was WAY easier than the 0-1 for me. maybe in a year when they are 2 and 1, i'll change my mind? but right now i'm having a blast.. and it probably helps that crew is such a good sleeper. that probably makes a huge difference. anyway, i'm rambling.. here's what's awesome about crew right now:

- he goes to bed when wyatt does, around 730 and sleeps all night

(sometimes eats around 4, but mostly not)

- struggling with 45 min naps (usually get one good 1 hr-2hr one a day)

but he's so happy when he's awake that i can't get mad :)

- is the most smiley baby.. i swear wyatt didn't smile this much until much older, like 5 months

- he is a talker, maybe he doesn't wanna get forgotten.. he just coos and babbles all day

- is SO content playing on his own, probably cause wyatt is so demanding right now

- loves to watch wyatt run around all day

- totally formula fed and eats 4-5 oz every 3 hours.. gerber good start

- sleeps in his crib for all naps and nighttime, puts himself to sleep

- still swaddled, but probably will wean in a few weeks like wyatt did

- loves a binky

- starting to not hate his carseat so bad..

- is such a good sport, when we're out having fun, like at the zoo, he just snoozes in the stroller (love my city mini double for SURE)

- is super bald, with a little peachfuzz on top

- has a few dimples, hope he always does

- doesn't look like wyatt to us, but everyone says he does ??

- has blue eyes for sure, wyatt has hazel

- is bigger than wyatt was at his age.. i think he's almost 14 lbs

- we're just so in love with him.. can't wait to see him grow up with his brudder, we're so blessed.

.peanut #2 birth story.

cinco de mayo was a good day for the owens family

follow the link below to read about baby crew's arrival on may 5 :)

http://www.ashandcam.blogspot.com/2012/06/crews-birth-story.html

we're seriously having a blast.. crazy busy.. but having a really fun summer.

.36 weeks.

ok, so i use this blog to update about wyatt's progress and since it used to be my infertility blog, i like to keep updated about pregnancy stuff too. i had my 36 week appt yesterday and found out i was already 3+ cm dilated. dr. g felt like i probably won't make it to even 39 weeks. this scares me. i'm really excited to meet baby o #2 but i want him to grow a little more. i bet now he would only be about 6 pounds! NO.. i want a little bigger babe. the dr said i need to take it easy and try to keep him in there at least another week or so. i'll try, but doesn't she know i'm chasing a 15 month old baby! she should since she just had her 2nd baby under 2 years old as well. anyway, i thought it was crazy that my body is already making plans for the arrival of little boy. oh.. and maybe you (whom ever reads this still) could vote on the name you like.. it's between:

crew

&

warner

here's to a few more weeks, hopefully!

.15 months.

15 months

i haven't updated this blog in a while.. here's a few things wyatt is doing at 15 months

our pedi doesn't do 15 month check ups unless they're concerned about growth or something else...

but wyatt is weighing in at a hefty

27 pounds

32 inches tall

and so dang adorable!

some things we don't want to forget about him right now:

-how he points to my belly when we ask "where's brother?"

-he gives high fives, bones, and kisses (both mouth to mouth or blows them to us)

-does "who loves wyatt. I DO!"

-does animal sounds for monkey, dog, horse, cow, lion, and tiger

-gives awesome squeezies (hugs)

-knows how to pinch his nose when we ask if he's stinky

-can say ball (DAH!) and balloon (da-innngg)

-says mama and DAD really clearly

-signs more, please, and thank you

-still eats whatever we give him.. loves green beans the most

-is transitioning from 2 naps to 1

-still sleeps 12 hours at night

-says CHEESE when we take pictures

-has been loving the backyard pool we got from grandma

- carries the baby doll around and rocks it (mostly cause we ask him to)

-drinks A LOT, mostly water!! how are we going to potty train! EVER!?

-is learning things that are "dangerous" like the street and pool.. waves his hand out in front of him when we say it's dangerous... so funny.

im sure theres lots more things im forgetting to add but here are just a few that we are loving right now. we can't wait to see how he adapts to the new baby. we're loving this stage so much, it will be strange going back to a newborn routine.. but we'll get there.

.one.

wow, where did this year go!? i am posting this today because tomorrow we'll be busy celebrating little wy's first birthday. i can't believe it and get a little teary thinking he'll never be a baby again. he's still my baby, but come may we'll have two and we couldn't be more excited about that. as the days creep by, i can't wait to see wyatt as a big brother and i know in a year or two our little boys will be making lots of little pitter-patter around the house. i wanted to jot down a few things to remember wyatt at his first birthday.

- he's still doing his straight arm twirl when he gets excited

- can take 8-10 steps but is a little shy about it without help

- dances on cue, when we say "shake it, wyatt, shake it"

- can high-five

- does patty cake when we sing the song (claps up and down though :)

- waves bye bye, or hi

- gives kisses, hugs, and head bonks

- is FINALLY getting his 2 front teeth, that will make a total of 4

- loves the bead maze, wooden shape sorter, and his books that sing songs

- still LOVES the bath.. especially with papa's swimming bugs

- loves to snuggle blankets and stuffed animals

- takes 2 naps a day

- goes to bed at 7:30 and wakes at 7

- eats EVERYTHING

- drinks out of a straw sippy all the time.. NO MORE BOTTLES

- loves his daddy.. if i'm around and dad is too, he wants dad

- is wearing 18-24 month clothes

- is just the love of our lives

one cute thing i caught him doing yesterday.. i couldn't hear him anywhere so i started looking around and wyatt had carried his stuffed doggy and 2 books into a corner in his room and was quietly "reading" .. just melted my heart.

.9 months.

wyatt is now 10 months but i wanted to just jot down a few things about his 9th month.

stats:

weight: 23.5 lbs

height: 29 inches

things he's doing and loving:

crawling

giggling all the time

baths (that hasn't changed)

balls, all kinds

mckenzie

suckers

walking around all the furniture

pulling up to standing on ANYTHING

drinking from straws

sleeping 13 hrs at night

2 naps

bananas

applesauce

yogurt

only has 2 teeth still

does his frowny face when he's excited, weird

wants to be in the same room as cam and me

not good at independent play :(

still cute as can be

and currently has hand foot mouth disease.. NOT FUN.

.still in shock.

ok, so now everyone knows that we are expecting a SURPRISE miracle in may. first i have to write that this was "planned" but we really really thought it would NEVER happen on our own. i guess we always have had "hope" that we would conceive naturally, but you kind of have to be realistic too. so i stopped breast-feeding in april to get my periods back so we could start to "try" for another baby this fall. when i did finally start my periods again in may and june, they were super regular like they were before i got pregnant with wyatt..but they were longer.. i have always thought that my 24 day cycles before wyatt were a problem but none of my drs seemed to care. so now i had cycles that were the standard 28 days. lovely. i began doing ovulation testing in july and never got a + so i chalked it up to still having some hormonal imbalances. so in august i began testing for ovulation again, and on august 28 (CD 15) i finally got a + test. (before wyatt i NEVER ovulated after CD 10-11, so that was different, but better.) we did some "good timing" but we still both felf like it was a shot in the dark considering we had to do 4 ivfs to get little wy. life got pretty busy around then, we were re-roofing our house, landscaping the yard, and i was working a lot. i started spotting lightly on sept 6, and thought, yep, period is on her way.. didn't think much of it. a few days later i looked at the calendar on sept 11 and realized i was on CD 29... and the spotting was all but GONE. weird. my first thought was, ok, now i know my hormones are jacked because now i'm not even getting a period. i was planning on calling the dr to get some tests done the next day to see what was going on with my hormones. on monday sept 12.. i got home from work at 7 am and briefly mentioned to cam that my period never showed up this month. he asked if i was pregnant... and i looked at him funny (ok, more like a crusty) and said, "yeah, right." well by the afternoon i remembered that i had a dollar store pregnancy test in the cupboard from when i got pregnant with wyatt. i was sorta laughing at myself for even thinking of doing it, but what the heck. and i peed on the stick. i was SO sure it was going to be negative that i didn't even wait to look at it.. i set in on the sink and went to feed wyatt lunch. i came back to grab something and the test caught my eye... NO SQUINTING needed, there were 2 pink lines. and i kinda freaked out, not because i didn't want to be pregnant, more that i would get my hopes up that i was only for it not to be true. i thought, maybe the test was expired and it was wrong. i wisked up the baby and we ran to the store for more tests. and sure enough..all were blatantly +...no questions asked. i called cameron and he was shocked but much more willing to accept the news then i was...i was just in protection mode...aka, denial. of course, i called dr g and she wanted me to get an hcg and progesterone done. well, its been almost a week now, and my levels are rising and i'm on progesterone support, for precaution mostly :) my first beta at 14 dpo was 111 and on 16 dpo it was 259. anyway, that's the story and there is NOTHING that we could be happier about. we feel extremely blessed and can't wait for wyatt to have a sibling so close to him. i am writing this now, but obviously not posting it until we tell our families... which should be around the 2nd week of october... by then we will have had a 7wk ultrasound to find a heartbeat. so...SUPRISE...we're cured, for now.

UPDATE:
we had our ultrasound on oct 1st and good news.. one little baby, one little heartbeat. we're over the moon.

.6 months.

i just thought i'd jot down a few things we want to remember about our little peanut (or should i say BIG peanut) at six months.

- weighs about 20 lbs and is almost 27 in tall (6 month appt next week)

- he absolutely loves his baths and the pool.. he could splash in them all day

- he's taking 3 naps pretty regularly and goes to bed around 7

- still wakes once a night to eat between 3-5 (hope this goes away soon)

- is eating about 1 tub of gerber 1st stages food per day

- LOVEs green beans, peas, squash, and sweet potatoes

- just learned a new trick.. blowing raspberries with FOOD in his mouth. he thinks he's so funny even though i try to keep a straight face and tell him no

- is almost sitting on his own. he can stay up for a good minute or so but then falls back or to the side

- has totally mastered rolling, front to back and back to front

- just started to do baby push ups when on his tummy

- has two little teeth bumps on his lower gums... should be here any day

- LOVEs his sophie the giraffe.. loves to chew on her feet and horns

- is in size 3 diapers and still soaks the overnights almost every night

- has had 3 blowouts over the 4th of july weekend... one for daddy :)

- is completely binky free for sleeps so he doesn't wake for it 10 times at night

- looks like he's had chemo because he's losing his hair on the sides, but the top is SO long

- is so smiley every morning.. never cries, just plays in his crib til we come get him

- has the cutest, chubbiest cheeks on his face and his bum

- still loves the exersaucer, could play in it for over an hour...

- starting to LOVE the jumperoo

- has totally outgrown all his 3-6 month clothes.. very sad

- has been to duck creek, st. george, and we're going to jackson hole tomorrow

- been rollerblading lots in the bike trailer

- been 4 wheeling in the backpack

- has me and his daddy wrapped around his little finger.. how did we ever live without him

.guilty.

so i started feeling really guilty that i haven't done a better job at documenting all the funny, cute, and amazing things about wyatt. i don't really want to bore the readers of my family blog, so i think i'll just use this IF blog to post stuff about him, and still document our IF journey for baby #2 in a year or two.

so wyatt will be 4 months on may 7 and he has grown SO much. he is learning so many things and i absolutely LOVE watching his eyes light up when he discovers something new. i never thought i'd like just sitting and watching him for hours and hours, but i do :) it's so fun. i'm also so lucky that i can work full time and be a stay at home mom all at once. i'm working sun, mon, tue nights 7p-7a in PACU. it works out beautifully. cameron has really stepped up to the plate and is a phenomenal daddy. he takes the night shift the 3 nights i work and he really does such a great job. he puts him to bed and wakes up when he eats... but the last few nights he has been sleeping 9-10 hours straight. his bed time is 730 so that means he still wakes up at 4-5am but he eats and goes back to sleep til 7am. i call that sleeping through the night. love him.

as for me, i pretty much had PPD/PPA. i didn't realize that's what it was until most of the people around me mentioned it. when wyatt was 3 months old, i finally called my dr and got some medication for it. it has been smooth sailing since those started working. i am coping so much better and that has allowed me to fall more in love with my baby. i didn't feel very connected to him for a LONG time because of it, and that makes me feel sad. i just have to realize that i wasn't me and the next baby i'll be more aware of what to look for sooner. anxiety is absolutely the WORST feeling in the world and i can't say that i've ever REALLY experienced it until after wyatt was born. it was very scary. my heart would race, i couldn't breathe, and taking wyatt out alone would send me into a full blown panic attack. i was afraid of everything, afraid he would cry while we were out and i would be able to calm him. who was i kidding. of course he's going to cry sometimes :) anyway, i feel so much better and i feel like i know wyatt so well that taking him places is no problem now. it also helps that he is such an easy-going, smiley baby.

so here are some fun things i want to remember about wyatt right now:

-his favorite activity is his play mat. just last week he started grabbing the toys. he thinks he's pretty cool when he does.

-he weighs over 15 pounds

-his reflux seems to be going away, he hardly spits up now :) yay for less laundry

-his thights have a few rolls each

-his head is still slightly flat, but hoping that it rounds out a bit when he starts sitting

-he hardly ever cries, only if he's hungry or tired

-he's now totally formula fed and does the best with the costco brand.. it's $16 a can and lasts 10 days

-he has only laughed once and it was for cameron, i have yet to hear it

-he always wakes up so happy from naps or bedtime

-he purses his lips when he stands and we call it his "big boy face"

-LOVEs his baths, just recently had to move his tub into the big tub to prevent splashing

-is just starting to take longer naps

-has the sweetest lip pout when he wants to smile but is starving

-only poops twice a week

-loves the bumbo, swing, and stroller

-has already been to st. george and new mexico

-his favorite songs are the itsy bitsy spider and you are my sunshine

-has lots of hair and it doesn't have an ounce of curl to it

-looks like he'll have blue eyes

-is starting to notice when i leave the room.. he doesn't cry, but definately looks around a lot

-thinks belle is hilarious

those are just a few things i love about our little bug. he's the best.

.welcome.

look who made his debut january 7th, 2011.. at 4:03 pm

wyatt jackson owens

7lbs 8oz

21 inches

to read the story click here:

http://ashandcam.blogspot.com/2011/01/story.html

.we made it.

yup, we made it to 2011.. our little guy is still snug as a bug in my squishy uterus. it's such an odd rush of emotions.. you want to meet them, yet you're still not sure if everything is totally ready, and you want your little one to come when THEY are ready. i'm totally ready for him, but is he ready for us? as for our last appt (38 weeks) i was still about 3cm dilated, but almost 100% effaced. my next appt is on wednesday (jan 5) and i'm going to ask dr. g if she would consider induction for that thursday or friday? doesn't hurt to ask, right? mostly i'm just super anxious and absolutely excited to meet him. i can't even believe he'll be here in less than 2 weeks! we're pretty set on his name, but you'll have to wait and see when he comes :) hopefully next post we'll have a little baby in our home.. can't wait to meet you, little man.

.37 week appt.

just got back from dr g's office for my 37 week appt. just love her. she wanted to be SURE he was head down so she brought in the lovely ultrasound machine. it was nice to see our little guy again. we got to see his little face for the first time (at the 20 week ultrasound his hands were mostly covering his face). i think he has cameron's smushy lips and a button nose kinda like mine. we'll see if that's true soon enough! anyway, today was my first internal exam and i was pleasantly surprised that instead of being totally closed up...i was dilated to 2.5 and 70-80% effaced. i'm trying not to get too excited, because i know you can hang out like that for weeks and weeks, but dr g felt pretty confident that i won't make it to my due date. that's pretty exciting. also, she said that since i have already shown that i can make progress, she wouldn't mind inducing me a few days early or at least stripping my membranes! yay! now for flex pay purposes, i really really don't want him to come this year! we put lots of money on our flex pay for 2011, just to pay for the delivery, so if he comes this year, that money will have to be used for something else (maybe lasix for me??) anyway, anytime after january 1st at 12:01am is fine, but not this year, ha ha. in all seriousness though, we'll take him whenever he's ready :) and it would be super fun for whit to be here to meet him :) only a couple weeks!

.holy 38 days.

yup, you read it correctly...that's just over 30 days, folks. 38 days (or hopefully less) until we meet our little dude. isn't it so crazy...maybe i'm the only one who thinks it's crazy close. now that it's so close to being over, i'm not so sure i want to be done being pregnant...yeah, it's mostly uncomfortable, but it's pretty amazing too. i probably complain a lot, to cameron, but really it's been amazing to see the changes and the feel the life of another human inside me. does my back kill all the time, yes. do my feet and ankles look like redwood trees, yes. do i feel like an elephant is sitting on my lungs, yes. and did i actually have sweat beading up on my forehead while teaching yw today, yes... but is it 100% worth it? absolutely, and i haven't even had the chance to fall in love with his little face yet. i can't imagine how that must feel to see and hold your little one for the first time. i'm sure people that read this (if anyone still does) have been there, but i think it's something you have to feel for yourself. it has to be something unforgettable and probably takes your breath away. i'm kind of tired of trying to imagine how it will feel, and just want it to be here! ugh. but i'm soaking up my last few weeks :) according to all the websites and my books, our little one weighs a little more than 5 pounds and can come really at any time...but don't worry, that's not happening because his head is still SO high and his feets are kickin' away at my ribs...ouch. anyway, haven't had a dr appt for 3 weeks so not much to report there, but we're still just hangin' out and waiting to meet our baby. 38 days left!

.30 weeks.

oh my gosh.. the time is flying now. it seems like just yesterday i was 20 weeks and finding out that our peanut is a little boy! and now, we're only 10 weeks away from meeting our little guy. that's nuts. i really don't have much to say about it other than i hope the next 2 months go by quick. i can't wait to meet him.. the anxiety of waiting is killing us. i'm officially huge now. i was dreading the day when the drs i work with started to notice...isn't it just so awkward knowing they notice, but they don't know for sure if i am or not, so they don't ask, but you know they want to? it's funny, when the drs are giving me report on my patient, they basically are glacing down every few words to check it out.. i finally just started saying, yeah, it's a belly, and i'm having a boy :) i think after that, we're both relieved. ha ha. the back aches are pretty bad.. i can't sleep at all. sometimes i even have to hang my upper half over the side of the bed to stretch it all out..crazy. it's pretty amazing how our bodies just mold to where the baby needs it to for them to grow. it sure is a miracle... now let's just pray for a miracle that it'll all go back where it started.. fat chance. so i'm pretty sure we're now mostly ready for him to come. nursery is done, bassinet is up, and carseat is waiting. i think we're just a little anxious, what do you think?? here's to 30 weeks down, 10 to go!

.wow, 24 weeks.

so this post is slightly premature.. but this week marks viability. not saying if i were to go into labor that this little boy would survive, but there's a chance and that's a slight sigh of relief. and believe me, i'm not asking for a micro-premie. that would be tough! but i guess i'm just trying to say that i'm so grateful to have made it this far, and feeling as good as i do. i've been feeling a little sad lately because i just don't feel "connected" to this little guy yet? is that bad? i mean i love feeling him and i talk to him and i just try and envision the day that cameron and i get to meet him. i hope it is still my insane coping mechanism that infertility taught me.. thanks, infertility...i really appreciate it. anyway, i'm not a worrier and people always tell me, "just wait til you see his little face, you'll melt" and i have NO doubt that those words are true. i'm still very excited and i've had some wonderful moments, just me and him, where he's tossin' and turnin' and i have to laugh. it's so weird and beautiful at the same time. i think my mom is slightly bummed that she hasn't felt him, but i have an anterior placenta that makes the little movements hard to feel from the outside.. but cameron has seen him in there rollin' around.. he's in awe. i have to hand it to my husband. he's great and so excited for this baby. sometimes i wonder if he's more prepared than me.? he's great. i know he'll have such a stellar relationship with our little guy, one i'll most likely to be jealous of. well for stats purposes, i have felt the little one kick most of the time..he definately doesn't sleep more than he's awake, in my opinion. he's over a pound now and probably cute as can be. people are still pretty shocked that i'm 24 weeks almost...because i just haven't "popped" yet. i know it's comin'. i've been pretty lucky that i don't have to really worry about what i eat...i just eat when i feel like it. works pretty good. i see my ob on wednesday and i'm hoping she's ok with my 6 lb weight gain... we'll see. i seriously couldn't eat more or better if i tried. i get so full, so fast! i probably drink a gallon of milk every day or so. so as far as belly pics.. there aren't too many yet. we took some at the u of u game last sat but i look pudgy, not pregnant. i'll see if i can post one soon.. because i'm not sure if this will be my one and only pregnancy? i would be so sad if it were, but we feel very strongly about adoption still.. we'll see. happy 24 weeks to us.

.the name.

so i'm not usually a fan of asking people's opinions about baby names, mostly because it's the parents and the kiddo that have to live with the name, so it really shouldn't matter what other people think. but i'm going to put some of the names we like out there, some only i like, and some only cameron likes, and just see what you think. ultimately we'll be deciding together and this blog will have no influence...but just for kicks??

-gunner
-crew
-bauer
-griffin
-wyatt
-greyson

so we obviously don't really go for the popular names, can you tell? what do you like. we're pretty sure the middle name will be cameron, but it has to flow with the OWENS last name. :) have fun giving us your input.

.photo.

.our little boy.

2o weeks

.20w0d.

so i wasn't able to post much last week and i wanted to write about the BIG ultrasound. i've heard ladies talk about it and you think you know what to expect going into it, but cameron and i were both pretty awe-struck with how great it was. it truly is a miracle all those little cells, that began as two single cells, all know where to go and what parts to create. seriously, amazing. i remember taking an embryonolgy class at the U and feeling the same way, but it's so incredible when it's YOUR two cells that it starts from. anyway, the ultrasound was great, the girl that did it was so nice, telling us all about each image she recorded. the images were so wonderful. to see those 4 chambers in the heart and the actual heart valves pumping away! WOW! and to see all the structures of the brain, even the tiny ones, that produce the CSF...unbelievable. and of course, there was no mistaking the gender.. loud and proud, he is very boyish! anyway, you get the gist. we were so glad to hear all the great news that our IVF/ICSI baby is (mostly likely) not going to have anything wrong with him.. he's such a little miracle and we couldn't be more happy to meet him. i have had some panicky moments (which is NOT like me) where i feel like he's not going to be cute or something...normal, right? it's so weird being a worry wart...because it's SO NOT like me. i really couldn't do that full time, it's exhausting. it has been pretty amazing feeling those little bubble-like feelings in my tummy..a little reassurance that he's still there. it's kind of nice having a little buddy 24/7 to talk to. i'm sure his little ears are already bleeding from me jabbing away all the time :) love you, little one.

.thrilled.

wow, what an amazing experience to see the little man's parts...
he looks healthy, good heart, good brain, good boyish parts...
we couldn't be more thrilled
can't wait to meet you, little guy

.16w1d.

well things are still moving right along. i had an appt with dr. g yesterday and luckily my mom wanted to come, since cameron had a meeting at work. my mom, like me, had also been anti-female-dr before, but she, like me, absolutely loved her! i was just as impressed with her seeing her yesterday as the first day we met. i was worried that she was going to scold me for not gaining any weight, but she really didn't even care as long as i was getting my 64 oz of water each day. i actually lost a pound and told her my appetite just sucks. and she said, don't worry about it, you'll get it back. good news. i am almost 100% sure we're having a boy. i even saw what he looks like in my dream...i know, i know, dreams aren't real, but this was borderline revelation, ha ha. anyway, he's cute and he has a little dark hair?? we'll see. i scheduled my ultrasound for august 24th so i guess we'll know then. other than that, everything looks perfect still.. no spotting and the heartrate measured 148... still great. as far as how i feel...still crappy some days, others, pretty good. still not complaining though.. it's all worth it. can't wait to meet the little guy (or girl, if i'm totally wrong), but i hope not before christmas is over.