.still in shock.

ok, so now everyone knows that we are expecting a SURPRISE miracle in may. first i have to write that this was "planned" but we really really thought it would NEVER happen on our own. i guess we always have had "hope" that we would conceive naturally, but you kind of have to be realistic too. so i stopped breast-feeding in april to get my periods back so we could start to "try" for another baby this fall. when i did finally start my periods again in may and june, they were super regular like they were before i got pregnant with wyatt..but they were longer.. i have always thought that my 24 day cycles before wyatt were a problem but none of my drs seemed to care. so now i had cycles that were the standard 28 days. lovely. i began doing ovulation testing in july and never got a + so i chalked it up to still having some hormonal imbalances. so in august i began testing for ovulation again, and on august 28 (CD 15) i finally got a + test. (before wyatt i NEVER ovulated after CD 10-11, so that was different, but better.) we did some "good timing" but we still both felf like it was a shot in the dark considering we had to do 4 ivfs to get little wy. life got pretty busy around then, we were re-roofing our house, landscaping the yard, and i was working a lot. i started spotting lightly on sept 6, and thought, yep, period is on her way.. didn't think much of it. a few days later i looked at the calendar on sept 11 and realized i was on CD 29... and the spotting was all but GONE. weird. my first thought was, ok, now i know my hormones are jacked because now i'm not even getting a period. i was planning on calling the dr to get some tests done the next day to see what was going on with my hormones. on monday sept 12.. i got home from work at 7 am and briefly mentioned to cam that my period never showed up this month. he asked if i was pregnant... and i looked at him funny (ok, more like a crusty) and said, "yeah, right." well by the afternoon i remembered that i had a dollar store pregnancy test in the cupboard from when i got pregnant with wyatt. i was sorta laughing at myself for even thinking of doing it, but what the heck. and i peed on the stick. i was SO sure it was going to be negative that i didn't even wait to look at it.. i set in on the sink and went to feed wyatt lunch. i came back to grab something and the test caught my eye... NO SQUINTING needed, there were 2 pink lines. and i kinda freaked out, not because i didn't want to be pregnant, more that i would get my hopes up that i was only for it not to be true. i thought, maybe the test was expired and it was wrong. i wisked up the baby and we ran to the store for more tests. and sure enough..all were blatantly +...no questions asked. i called cameron and he was shocked but much more willing to accept the news then i was...i was just in protection mode...aka, denial. of course, i called dr g and she wanted me to get an hcg and progesterone done. well, its been almost a week now, and my levels are rising and i'm on progesterone support, for precaution mostly :) my first beta at 14 dpo was 111 and on 16 dpo it was 259. anyway, that's the story and there is NOTHING that we could be happier about. we feel extremely blessed and can't wait for wyatt to have a sibling so close to him. i am writing this now, but obviously not posting it until we tell our families... which should be around the 2nd week of october... by then we will have had a 7wk ultrasound to find a heartbeat. so...SUPRISE...we're cured, for now.

UPDATE:
we had our ultrasound on oct 1st and good news.. one little baby, one little heartbeat. we're over the moon.